Intoduction

I first began feeling self conscious in third grade, when I realized all the other girls in class were smarter, prettier, and had nicer clothes then I had. My mom wold tell me not to eat certain foods or I would get fat, and my dad prepared elaborate meals almost every night.  I started to look at food differently as the year went by. I saw girls who were smaller then me and talked about how their sister's were 'Anorexic'. 

I asked them what Anorexia was and they responded that it was when a 'girl is skinny.' Throughout the year, I became more curious about how their sisters got skinny, and why I was not. My parents around this time, would force me to finish my plate of food, even though I was full. And so the began. 

Around the age of 9, I began occasionally vomiting my food because I figured it could help me lose the baby fat. 

The occasional purging occurred until I was about 13. My father was an abusive alcoholic and my mother addicted to pain medication. This left my home unbearable, and I wanted to escape. At this time, my eating disorder came on full speed. I also began cutting my self with Exacto knifes, mostly on my legs.  At age 16, I got my first job working at a high end retail store. Keeping thin and looking good were part of the job. I went from 198 lbs to 158lbs in 3 months. Everyone commented on my appearance, and I had never felt more beautiful. 

Then I met my boyfriend. It was impossible for me to hide my eating disorder from him because we went out to eat so often. I told him about my struggle with Bulimia and he made me promise that I would  NEVER do it again. Well.. I kept the promise in my own way for 3 years. Limiting my bulimia. I went from 158 lbs to 268 in 3 years.  I felt like a failure. 

So today, I am still with my boyfriend, but we are attending different colleges. The day I moved to college was the day my eating disorder flared like a wild fire. I had no one to regulate what I ate, and so many opportunities to binge and purge. I have been in college for 3 months and I am already down to 224.4 lbs.  

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Thank you,

Minny